THE STORIES WE LOVE, LIVE IN US FOREVER

                 

It's 10 pm now. exactly two hours ago,i watched  the final episode of  The King: Eternal Monarch.

its 2020 and corona time.

 i never thought i'd find myself loving something this excessively. i claim to be a fan of fandoms and i've loved a lot of stories so far. (disclaimer: about fandoms, i think one doesn't have to know each and every fact of the fandom they belong to, they just have to love it enough to call it a part of themselves). so, i've loved a lot of stories so far,all of them beautiful for their own reasons. some for their story, some for the ones who are in it, some for the time period i'd watched them in. all of them are precious. but this show,this story left something that'll never fade, even time can't change the way i feel about this story, or at least, how i remember it.

i've spent roughly one and a half months on this one. i don't know how people feel about stories. be it books or shows. 

To me, they're very very beautiful. The story, the people who write it, direct it, play any part in it, the people who admire it, those people who get together and talk about it as if their life depends on it! its all so beautiful and true! to all of these people, their life does depend on it!

its an invisible factor! i'm being very vague, but i don't know how  I can explain myself. i can't form my thoughts to tell you how impactful and precious a story can be to a person.

all this while, i've been following this story, calling Shreya as soon as the episode was done. talking about it for hours, thinking about it all the time, forming theories, writing down  timelines, mapping them out , reading physics! it's been crazy and beautiful!

This entry,here,doesn't even cover half of what I'm feeling right now. It's just a feeble attempt to handle the eerie calm happening on the inside.

ever heard of falling deeper in love ? i fell more and more in love with the writer i'd already loved, the country, the people, the actors, the musicians, the weather, the soil, the sky, everything! everything turned even more beautiful! My best friend and I bonded more than we ever have in our lives! (maybe not our 

entire lives,but you get the idea)it just happened! 

And today was the time we've been wistfully dreading for. The day fate was going to be determined by the choices they make.

as i'm writing this , i feel so dead inside, nothing is working. just stillness.

i think i'm  broken , or pieced together?

i feel like my whole body's energy has been drained out, or restored ? i don't know.

all the anxiety and wait and restlessness that's been going on for weeks  has turned into an uneasy sea of calm.
it's spreading throughout my body.

its coursing through my veins. Too much? Definitely not.

 Closure.

this is what it feels like ..?

or in Lee Gon's words...., i can feel it. Something has been added to me.

i can't tell what though. it is beyond any word or expression that could ever exist.

 This feeling, this  journey. and i can't be thankful enough. ever.

i'll always cherish this. i'll always go back. whenever i want, just like them.

 this will always be a part of me. it already is, its etched on my soul(now i want it on my body too, a tattoo ,i was thinking? ;) )

i'll always be ready, To Come With You, To Your World.

 anytime, forever.