THE MOST BEAUTIFUL MOMENT IN LIFE

I think I’m falling in too deep. and fast.

I feel everything clearly, like all my senses have been heightened giving me the best of it.

Also, there is a one way mirror, it’s slow, for me, but for everyone watching on the outside, things are fast. I seem to have control, but barely.

now,

am I afraid of the fall ? no

am I afraid to hit the ground? yes

I know there’s the end bottom but I refuse to see it. I want this feeling of euphoria mixed with anxiety, the uncertainty that it holds, to last as long as it can.

there seems to be a kind of pain that comes along with all of this. but then, I feel happy with the pain too.

because the pain is the only reminder that it’s real.

there’s a weird rush in knowing that when I do hit, I’ll hit hard and I’ll bruise. The bruises will be Purple, the same colour of my blood because

purple is Dark. purple is Deep. purple is Beauty. and purple means Until the end. purple is my Promise to you.

Pinky Promise

So, I’ll take the fall. heck I already,

Fell

Falling

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and through all of this, I’m a little  scared that you may not turn around to see me, But I hope you’ll just feel my presence. from wherever you are.

I’ll always hope.

They say hope breeds eternal misery.

I believe otherwise

I believe hope is the only constant that’ll save you from it.

I made the decision and I’m gonna stay by it and You.

because you may never be mine, but my heart will always be yours.

and what happens to Me, through this entire process? We’ll just have to wait and see.

All I know, is that no matter what lies ahead, this will always be The Most Beautiful Moment in Life.

and you may argue that maybe it isn’t worth it all,

but I tell you. I have no regrets,

because I know who and what I’m falling for.